Tina my girl,
I know you are very depressed these days. I don’t know what to say to comfort you, but just want to tell you a story:
There were three young hunters in a village. Every young man in that village had to leave home and hunt for a living when grown up.
The first hunter is "fully geared"- He made good studies on the hunting technique and he had the most advanced hunting tools because he was from a wealth family plus he was eager to learn. He made good hunting result and celebrated every time.
The second hunter is "half geared" – He does not have very good knowledge about hunting at the beginning. So he hunted for small animals like rabbits and foxes. He has to go hunting from early morning to late evening every day because small animals could not be sold for big money. He spent the money to maintain his living and trade for better hunting tools. So he did not have spare money to celebrate. Occasionally, he joined one of the celebrations of his rich friends, but he still woke up and hunt in the early morning next day, because he knew that if he stop hunting one day, he will inertially stop hunting again the other day. He had built up the momentum of hunting everyday. A few years later, he bought very efficient hunting tools and he had learnt much better hunting technique from his experience. He is now hunting for better life.
The third hunter is "gearless" – He could have learnt the hunting technique but he gave up that chance before he grew up, blaming that his family was not giving him good support. One day, his family decided to buy him a rifle. So he learnt how to use it and got a "right to use certificate". He then went out to hunt. A few months later, he was not happy with what he hunted while comparing with his friends. Then he tried to hunt the bigger animal but he did not have better hunting tools for that. So he was frustrated and got drunk in the celebration party. He did not want to wake up in the morning because of many excuses given to himself. He then gave up hunting and blamed his family and his life again.
Tina, it is no way that you are the first hunter, but I hope that you could be the second one. Don’t be the third hunter because he can only participate in the joy and celebration of the successful of the others. His mind was empty when the party was over.
Everybody has his depressed time of failure, but successful always learns from failure. It’s time to have a in-depth self-review, and determine what to do next – Do not give up anyway.
I know saying is easy, but I did passed the same hard times as yours when young. "Easy" and "Difficult" is all defined by yourself. The more that you do not want to face and challenge, the more difficult you will feel.
Love from Dad
Dear Dad,How come you know that I’m depressed?Then do you know what makes me depressed?Love,Tina